SpriteGirl

Well, this is the first time I ever “come” out of something and I never knew it before, let alone exist. I’m 36 years old and I’m still discovering new things about myself in this journey upon Earth. What I’m about to tell you is something I found out about myself in April this year. I never felt so confident about myself once I found out and I truly accept this, now that I realize that there’s nothing wrong with me.

I thank Jaiden Animations for her video of her backstory about her being “AroAce”. If she never showed me the way, I would’ve never found out this part of myself.

Her Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF1DTK4U1AM

I’m AEGOROMANTIC AEGOSEXUAL!

Aegoromantic is a microlabel on the aromantic spectrum that describes those who enjoy the concept of romance but have a disconnection between themself and the subject of romantic fantasies. Aegoromantic individuals may have romantic fantasies, enjoy romantic media, or engage in shipping in fandoms, but they tend to feel little to no romantic attraction in real life and typically do not desire a romantic relationship.

Aegosexual is a microlabel on the asexual spectrum that describes individuals who experience a disconnect between themselves and the subject of arousal. Aegosexuals may experience sexual fantasies, enjoy porn and other sexual content, or masturbate, but they generally feel little to no sexual attraction and typically do not desire to involve themselves in sex with another individual.

Background Story:

When I was little, I always believed that I “needed” to be in a relationship, get married, have kids etc. Like people or society or movies/series/cartoons tells you all the time. When I was growing up, I never felt “attracted” or “drawn” to real boys/teenagers/men. There were multiple times that my parents or sisters saying “hey, that person is checking you out.” And yet, I felt nothing toward those people or didn’t notice at all at first and I did nothing with it.

When I was around 18 or 19 years, I ended up in a “relationship” I didn’t want, because my classmates kinda forced me into it (They were bullies toward me and laughed at me for not having a relationship with someone) so I “faked” it to get their way and that they leave me alone. The young man was nice (but I also had a certain thought that he joined the gang to make fun of me). A few weeks later, he broke up with me. I honestly felt more relieved by this, but to draw no suspicions to my “bully” classmates, I “cried” in class so that they won’t say anything about it. (I’m not sure if this sounds cruel to anyone, but I just hated that class and year) I never had a relationship after that and I still wasn’t drawn to men.

This year in April, I came in contact with someone from work I thought he’s nice and kind etc. Then after getting his number, we chatted while I was at a weekend trip. One Sunday, I just felt silent and thought so much of this: Do I continue to do “more” than friends or not?! What if he does and I say no to him?! Will he hate me for it?! I learned so much from my sisters about relationships and all during all those years and I became aware that I never wanted it at all. After chatting and confessing, turns out he wasn’t interested into me like that at all and he wants to stay friends, which I felt so relieved by it all. Then I started to realize that something was different about myself.

A few weeks before that event in April, I came across an Youtube-video from my fav animator Jaiden Animations: “Not Being Straight”, made on March 20, 2022. A video that tells her that she’s “AroAce”.

Once that event of myself in April has been cleared out, I wondered if I was like her as well. After researching for like hours of reading on lots of LGBTQIA websites, I finally recognize myself into 2 “micro labels”. I’m AEGOROMANTIC AEGOSEXUAL.

If you were able to read all of this, you’ll get a lot of cookies and thank you for showing support by reading this. I do wonder now if I find somebody else that falls into this category, who knows.

Hey everyone!

Just wanted to say that I'm still online, even tho I don't really do much of putting drawings here, left alone doing something here, now more than ever since the Eclipse episode.

I do like fav artworks a lot lol XD

However, I sometimes do other things, like creating little air-dry clay-works upon Instagram.

If ya interested to look at a few of my projects or some drawings I added there, my Instagram name is "lovepaperhearts".

You can follow me on there if ya like ^^

Love ya guys!

SpriteGirl

ps: the name "lovepaperhearts" is a new thing I LOVE to do: folding origami paper hearts <3